I live in the Capital city of Sri Lanka which is more
westernized than other parts of the country. People are more educated and independent.
With people focusing more on their studies and career the pressure on parents
on finding a partner for their children heighten. However there are many who
finds their own partners despite the constant rat race whereas there are some
who still haven’t found their “soul mate” (whatever you can call it).
I am one of them. I was first pressurized to excel in
education, find a job and now I am under tremendous pressure to get married. I find
this very disturbing because I do not want to be forced into a marriage I really
don’t like and I very well know that I’m not at all ready to be someone’s God
damn wife. This doesn’t mean that I want to live the rest of my life single and
lonely but I do have hope that someday I will find the right one for me. I have
tried my very best in explaining to my parents that I’m not one of those girls
who would do as they say and that I want to excel in my career first. However my
parents being the dumb, typical, traditional parents they are, turns a blind
eye for my arguments thinking that I’m naïve, stupid and stubborn.
I’ve been a rebellious kid my whole life because I constantly
fight for what’s right and wrong and this factor itself has harmed my
relationship with my parents. Our parents want to do what’s best for us, but
what if the best they think is actually NOT the best thing for us? Does it mean
that we have to satisfy every wish of them? At the moment my parents are
putting pressure on me to be with a guy they found for me and that I should be
married to him as soon as possible. But what if I DON’T WANT THAT? Don’t I get
a say in what I want?
As far as options go to, I got two. One is to keep on
fighting for my life and the other is to go abroad. I want to fight for myself
but I’m worried in giving up. I don’t want to make their wishes come true, I want
my dreams to come true.
