Ever since I started my blog, I’ve written nothing but bad
or horrible things about my life. But this time, it’s going to be a bit
different. This is going to be one of those positive thinking and grateful
posts.
Since the time I graduated, I’ve been through so many
hardships including loss of jobs, bad boyfriends and messy family
relationships. The list goes on and I’m pretty sure that I’m repeating what I’ve
written already.
After waiting patiently for so long, I met the man of my
dreams. The one person who was meant to me, my one and only soulmate. Believe me
when I say this, I’ve been waiting for him forever, adhering to my positive thinking rules and imagining how I would meet him, but of course it didn’t manifest overnight,
it took so many years of being hopeful and bearing through many lonely nights. During
that time, something else happened too. I met so many idiots. Plenty of guys
whom I had a crush on or liked but not at all worthwhile to be a decent
boyfriend. However, in my time of desperateness and self-doubt as to whether I'll ever be married
or whatever, I pursued them, understanding fully that they are not worth it. Every
time, a person would show their interest, I would always think that they
might be the one for me and I wasted a lot of time thinking about them.
There were many nights where I was bowling down with tears
in the bathroom or in my room unable to cope with my loneliness or there would
be days where I would shed tears over a man I liked but who didn’t like me back
or over someone who hurt me. There were days where I wished that I would die because I couldn’t
cope with the pain and scarily there were days where I lost faith in my
religion.
But this is what I want to tell you guys. All those idiots,
those bad boys, taught me a lesson. They made me appreciate the
wonderful man I have now. The not-so-worthwhile men taught to me appreciate and respect myself and to understand what’s good for me and to understand what I deserve.
If not for the difficult lessons I learnt, I would take this person for granted and I wouldn’t appreciate him or love him like I do now. I know what an amazing,
wonderful, caring and an honest person he is. I love him deeply because I’ve
associated people who are the opposite of him and I understand the difficulty
in finding a similar person as he is out there in the world.
So, the bottom line is that there might be a reason that we
are put through difficult struggles. It may sound like preaching and you might
wonder how the hell that whatever you are going through can be a good thing. Trust
me, I’ve been there. My hardships are not over yet. I know there will be plenty
of obstacles to face but I have faith that there might be a higher purpose
or a reason as to why I have to go through them. But I have to say that not all
obstacles will have a purpose, there were certain things that happened that had no possible explanation whatsoever, so I guess they are just our fate or how we’re
supposed to live. Finally, what I wish to say is that, even though you can’t see
the silver lining yet, there will be. It’ll take few days, months or many years
(like me) for you to really look back and understand why it had to happen to
you.